Warm weather is here, well it was!!

Yesterday was an awesome day! Warm spring weather was FINALLY here! Today, on the other hand, is another story. But, we enjoyed yesterday and went to the park with some sweet friends. I LOVE April, it is the best month of the year! Birthdays, Easter, Vacation, flowers, warmth....glorious!!

Potty Training for Dummies

Do they make a book called "Potty Training for Dummies?" If they do, would somebody please buy it for me?!?!? I always knew potty training could be hard, but I never imagined that my child would be the one that struggled so much. I mean, you always hear stories about kids that were so stubborn and took forever to get trained, but that would never be MY kid, right? Wrong. Sawyer finally had some great success this weekend and I am feeling better about it today than I have for the longest time, but wow, he has not been easy. He is the most laid back kid, which has been great up until now. He simply doesn't care if he goes on the potty. He doesn't care if you put him in time out. He doesn't care if you take his toys away. He just doesn't get too upset about anything! I wish I were more like that, ha ha! Please pray that he turns the corner and decides that going on the potty is important to him, otherwise we might be sending him to kindergarten in a pull up! Ahhhhhhh!!!! :)

Disney Toy Story on Ice

We took a quick trip to Kansas City last weekend to see Disney Toy Story on Ice. Nanny decided that she wanted to do that for Sawyer's birthday this year so Sawyer, Me, Nanny, and Kaylor piled in the car and headed North. We never imagined that we would be driving through sleet and snow to get there! It was a crazy cold freezing weekend in late March, but we still had a blast!! Sawyer and Kaylor are such sweet friends and they enjoyed the show and the time spent together. I just love my family and I love that we have opportunities like this. We made memories to last a lifetime!

He says the funniest things...

This was my conversation with Sawyer this morning after his preschool was closed for 2 days because of snow...

Me, "Are you ready to go back to school today?" Sawyer, "I miss my friends." Me, "Which friend do you miss the most?" Sawyer, "Brooklyn...(pause in conversation)...mommy?" Me, "what buddy?" Sawyer, "I love Brooklyn." :) So sweet! Brooklyn is a girl in his class and the daughter of a great friend of mine.

After that conversation I got a message from his teacher saying this...

"hey! Sawyer was so cute this morning...walking back from breakfast i asked another to take my class so i could help a parent and sawyer says. "where you going Cawa?? i told him and he said "ok. come back!" lol."

He is so funny and cute...I just can't get enough of him! My favorite thing is when we are playing and I get up to go do something he always says, "be back mommy, ok?" It is so sweet and how could you ever say no!!??!!??

LOVE him!

Forced to slow down

Everybody always told me that being a full time working mom would be hard, but I had no idea just how hard! I feel like I am always being pulled in so many diffrent directions, trying to keep everyone happy and taken care of, but in my heart I only want to take care of one person...Sawyer. I want to devote all my time and attention to his every need and desire but I often times find myself focusing on other things first. Last week the Lord blessed me by allowing Sawyer to catch an illness that lasted a full week. No you did not read that wrong, I said He BLESSED me by allowing Sawyer to be sick. Now don't get me wrong, I never want my child to feel bad and I hate not being able to take his pain away. But, the blessing came in the fact that I was forced to stop what was going on in the rest of my world and focus on my little love. In fact, the first morning that he was so sick I set my phone in the other room and just held him all morning long. No emails, no work calls, no texts, no worrying about if everyone is where they need to be and doing what they need to do...just snuggle time with Sawyer. Even though he was sick, it was probably the best morning ever! He needed me and I needed to be there for him and I am so thankful to the Lord for giving us that time. While I am being completely honest, I must say that my heart has never longed for being a stay at home mom more than it did last week. Other than that morning, I spent most of the week juggling trying to get work done that had to be done, take care of my little boy that had to be taken care of, and feeling guilty every moment I was working (because I wasn't with Sawyer) and every moment I was with Sawyer (because I wasn't working). By Friday I was so ready for him to feel better just so I could get our lives back in a routine and not feel that guilt anymore. But I was wrong, the guilt never goes away. Every morning that I drop him off I feel guilty. I feel guilty that I am paying someone else to do MY job. I am paying someone else to teach, love, and take care of my child. I know that I shouldn't feel this way, but I do. That is what is on my mind today. I pray every day that the Lord will help me through these feelings and either make it an option to stay home more, or change my heart to handle my current situation better. I have faith and trust that He will get me through this time in my life. It is a WONDERFUL time!!! I wouldn't trade it for anything, just have moments where life gets a little overwhelming. This too shall pass. Thanks for listening!

Sweet prayers

Every night before bed we have a routine...Sawyer picks out a book or two, crawls in bed, gets a drink, and we read stories together. Once we are done reading we pray and thank Jesus for the special things and people in our lives. I always ask Sawyer what he wants to thank Jesus for and he usually names family members and friends that he loves. Last night he was very serious and when I asked him who we were going to thank Jesus for tonight he said, "Ummm, my Nanny...and Mater." If you don't know, Mater is from the movie Cars and apparently he is very important. ha ha :)

Snow Days